So my last post was about how I wasn't stressed about money and I was in a good place. Man, did I get emotionally attacked after that. I started feeling really depressed about our financial sitation. Not because we can't make ends meet, but because we can't provide what we want for our son. We can't just get up and go and do whatever we want and eat where ever we want. It hit hard mostly because of the Christmas season that's here and how we're only going to be able to get my son 1 gift. We're going to forgo gifts for each other (Fifo and I) and make it 1 GOOD gift. But still. While I see others out shopping till they drop on black Friday, I am out grocery shopping cause that's what all I have money for - and thank God for that! So Fifo and I were really depressed and finding it very hard to get into the Christmas spirit. Feeling very sorry for myself and our financial situation I vented with some good friends of mine. And can I just say, I thank God for them? I do! They didn't tell me I was being ungrateful. They didn't tell me there are people who had nothing. What they did was give me (HUGS) and tell me that even though we didn't have the money, we still could make wonderful Christmas memories. They offered great suggestions on things that were free or cheap that we can do. How we can create new memories. And I did just that! I sent Fifo a text that said:
Things to get us into the Christmas spirit that are free or cheap:
- Christmas movie night
- Making our own decorations with Christian
- Making Christmas cookies
- Decorating the house while playing Christmas music
- Look for events around town
We have to remember that Christmas isn't about us or the money and enjoy the holiday season.
He texted me back and said "Let's decorate tonight!" And it was an awesome night. We put on some good Christmas music and decorated. I made some hot chocolate and Christian had an absolute blast. He even put some decorations in his room. He was SO excited! So here we were, feeling sorry for ourselves when our son doesn't even know what is happening. Thank God for their innocence. He was happy just to help decorate. We have planned to get a small tree this weekend and decorate that. We also have planned a cookie baking night with my family. I'm hoping to finally see my favorite Christmas movie, A Muppet Christmas Carol, if Christian would just indulge me! haha... But its just small things that helps us.
So, another lesson learned... Christmas is more about the memories and less about the money. I'm going to try to make it all about memories.
